tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-696719379963408370.post4138413815002766347..comments2022-01-09T18:26:20.365-07:00Comments on Gay Saint: The FallGay Sainthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14558954609570246405noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-696719379963408370.post-66494223802974256522009-08-21T11:28:28.974-06:002009-08-21T11:28:28.974-06:00RH: Thank you for sharing that experience with me...RH: Thank you for sharing that experience with me.Gay Sainthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14558954609570246405noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-696719379963408370.post-2072129118008496712009-06-26T17:43:26.464-06:002009-06-26T17:43:26.464-06:00I would like to tell you about my "fall"...I would like to tell you about my "fall". While somewhat different, nevertheless, there is similarity.<br /><br />I was struggling like you, though I was too fearful back in those days to seek counseling. I felt I could handle the situation myself. I struggled for 28 years before I had a single encounter. After which I went to the bishop to confess.<br /><br />He wasn't much help and counseled me to find a woman to marry (even without love). I almost did what he suggested too.<br /><br />I went 3 more years celibate after that. Prayer was somewhat helpful. While praying I often felt as if the spirit was there comforting me. Spiritual comfort, though, didn't help take away the feelings, the loneliness nor the pain.<br /><br />Finally, at age 31 I just couldn't take the self loathing and hate any longer. I knelt down in prayer and instead of asking for the feelings to be taken away, I simply said: "I can't do it any more and I am going to just accept myself and try to live the best I can".<br /><br />Unbelievably, for the first time instead of just comfort, I felt the most incredible sense of peace and acceptance come over me. The guilt (for having these feelings) went away immediately and have never come back. I am now 50 years old and have never since had any regret for that particular prayer.<br /><br />RHAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com